Because I'm not Growing Up, I'm already too tall.
It has been too long and an update is definitely needed. So, things have going absolutely marvelously recently. I was able to take care of the whole giant utilities bill that I got shafted with a week and a half ago and I have been getting by well, and will continue to do so until my next pay check comes in next week. So financially things are looking up and that makes me very happy. Things are going to be getting even better soon too, as ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
lilium_vitiate should be moving in by the end of the week or early next week at the latest (knock on wood) and that will help cut down the cost of the room quite a bit between the two of us. That and us living together is going to be amazing anyways...
In other news, my 21st birthday was this weekend and it was quite an amazing weekend (and in this sense I consider my weekend to have lasted from Wednesday night to about two hours ago). It all started Wednesday night with Her showing up here earlier in the week than she usually does. Thursday was work, followed by a night of relaxing at home (couldn't make it out to Perversion this week, but we should next week) and then Friday was work again (I haven't minded work so much recently, been working on Civilization Revolution stuff recently). After work, came home to Her again (which I absolutely love doing. I don't think I will ever get tired of it.) and made dinner before heading out to a great low key party where it started raining just minutes after midnight for my birthday (it was amazing). There was much fun to be had at the party and I had wonderful birthday beginning. For the day part of Saturday we simply slept in, hung out, I made dinner again (served with the first legal drink I bought, a great bottle of White Zinfandel) and we watched Across the Universe before heading to Rocky. That night was mine and theteabegreen 's year anniversary on cast, and we performed together and had a good ol' time (which consisted of a number of people making or buying me drinks throughout the night). I performed slightly intoxicated and I didn't miss any cues, screw up any blocking, or fuck up in any noticeable way; it was a good show. After getting home after the show, We slept in till very late on Sunday, wasting most of the day in bed (which I cannot complain about in the slightest) before heading out to Clue rehearsal at the Nuart. It went well, the show looks good, and there was much snogging to be had in the back rows while not on stage (mainly by Us, no one else seemed to find it appropriate snogging time). Today was work again (man, why is this game still so fucked and already out in stores?) and then coming home to Her (still amazing) and taking a slight nap before making dinner for Her, Her family (which I invited over for dinner tonight a) to show them that I am a good guy and that I will take of her and b) because we have all never had a chance to sit and dine together). Dinner went very well, even if I was a ball of nerves the entire time (apparently it was cute and endearing).
Now, I sit here after seeing them all off, missing Her, revelling in the memories of this weekend, and wishing the We were living together already. It's funny, it has only been a couple of days, but I actually do feel older since my birthday. Not that is a bad thing, just...noticeable. I wonder what it means?
- Location:The Nook
- Mood:
happy
- Location:couch
- Mood:
accomplished
- Mood:
awake
- Mood: awake
Anyways, here I am, with a new found want and drive to post more often and with more content.....
Wow, that was fulfilling.
Ok, so my post last night was probably more than a little melodramatic and depressing, but you know what? I thought about deleting, I really did, but I decided against it. You know why? Because if I leave it there it will remind me how I get when I am alone and I drink and I write....and if that is all it takes to keep from doing it again, then I will gladly take the drunken humiliation that comes with it.
Another good thing that came out of my depressing stupor that was last night was this morning. I awoke feeling better than I have in awhile and I had a want to be productive which I don't usually have, especially in the mornings. I got up, picked up my pencils and giant art board and pads and I sketched. I drew and I drew and I drew. And it felt great. Since I have started taking art classes I haven't had the real desire to sit down and draw outside of them, where I have to sit down and draw for hours on end. But today I did, and it felt great to do it again of my own free will. Now if I only had a scanner so I could actually show it people and put it on my deviantart.
On another note, I feel as though I should be looking for somewhere new to live soon. Neither Zhani or his parents have said as much to me, but his brother just moved back from the Army and this used to be his room and I don't know how long I am going to be able to occupy it and he the couch downstairs. I mean, he is family and I am just....well, I am the guy they like enough to let live here. So, I really to get my shit together and get some money together because I don't know how long I am going to be where I am and I honestly have no clue where I would go if I wasn't here.....
Well, that is enough for one night and the guys are going to be over in about 8 hours for our weekly Star Wars game, so I need to get some sleep.
From This Side of the Monitor,
~Adam
- Mood: accomplished
Sometimes I hate the way my insomnia works, I really really really do. Fuck this noise.
- Mood:
annoyed
I have been up since about 3PM yesterday now, been working on homemade christmas gifts all night, because I am poor beyond belief and can't afford to buy anyone anything.
I am so so so tired right now, but I have to have dinner and desert with family, and then I may be going out with a few friends to see Sweeney Todd tonight, if i can somehow find the money for it. If not, I will be here, alone, depressed, and probably with insomnia again.
I hate christmas with a passion right now.
- Mood:
depressed
- Mood: tired
Also, turned in an application today, got an interview on Tuesday at, get this, a sex store. It looks like a really fun job, and well, I am primarily a nocturnal creature anyways.....so, if this job comes to fruition, I should be able to get some good discounts on any products that anyone may need....hehehe.
- Mood: bored
- Music:Queer as Folk, Season 3 Episode 4
I CLAIM GINA GERSHON:
(For those of you not on Sins cast, don't worry about it)
Secondly, I had the most amazing night tonight. Cooked a number of times today, had amazing conversations, and well the night was...well....the best ever.
I am happy.
- Mood: happy
May: Well, this is it, the first update if my brand new livejournal....
June: Oh, Rocky was much better this week than the previous two....
July: I need a soundboard of my own....
August: I just watched five hours of Heroes uninterrupted on my computer....
September: I passed my preliminary audition for Brad....
October: I am still in shock that I passed my audition, that I was voted on cast....
November: I love cooking for other people....
December: I spent a sleepless night cleaning my entire room....
On another note, I realized just how little I actually post and I am going to work on changing that to a more frequent interval for posting.
Also, tonight was amazing...... *content*
- Mood: content
I spent a sleepless night last night cleaning my entire room (except the closet, 'cause it ain't my shit in there). The floor is clean and visible, books are arranged, clothes either folded and hung or in the hamper, and a new area created and cleaned for my TV which I will most likely bring over from my grandparents on Sunday or early next week. I felt productive afterwards and so, being the masochist I am, I decided I would do a pencil portrait of Pepper for her as a gift. No one ever told me how fucking hard it is to try and draw freckles. I mean really......four hours later and they still didn't look right. By that early hour in the morning I realized I was doing more harm to the drawing than good with my constant attention to it, so I let sleep claim me. And claim me it did, I haven't slept like that in awhile, good gollies. Sleeping in a haze of accomplishment and artistic vision is an amazing sleep indeed.
So, now it is today. I woke late in the day, completely refreshed. I have been catching up n random shit, designing a very thrilling (if I do say so myself) Star Wars RPG campaign (yes, I am that kind of nerd) and basically loving the clean place that is my room. That and tomorrow I get latkes, things are going well for me.
Anyways, Pepper should be here soon and then we are off to Liz Stockton's place for a night of Sweeney Todd, pies of all kinds, and general musical theater loving revelry.
Mastering Dungeons and Manualing Monsters for over a decade,
~Adam Poisal
- Mood: hopeful
- Music:Duel of Fates - Episode 1 Soundtrack
I guess this comes from me always having to cook for myself growing up. You see, I am allergic to onions. And I am 50% Sicilian. I know, what the fuck is up with that? But, because of sad ironic twist of genetics, I became a pretty good cook because of it, having to make my own food and all when around family.
It makes me miss living a minute away from a Trader Joe's though....
- Mood:
bouncy
So much has happened in the last year, so much has changed, and it doesn't feel real. It doesn't feel like that much time has really passed, like that much time could have come and gone with leaving more of a telling mark upon me and the world.
I am quickly approaching 20 years old when it feels like just yesterday I was turning 19 and being blindfolded and dragged to Hollywood.
What happened to the time?
Maybe it is the fact that I don't seem to measure my time day to day anymore, but now more of in a week to week way. Maybe I am doing more, filling up the time and not counting as it ticks away. Maybe this is what a year really feels like and what we all refer to as the feeling of time flying is actually its normal pace and we only expect it to feel longer.
And maybe I should go to sleep soon, because I had to work overtime today and I have to be at work for 8 hours tomorrow before going to Rocky.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:Mass Romantic - The New Pornographers
Including the contents of my last posting, I have also been written up at work last week (and thanks to that I cannot transfer for 90 days, and thus can't move for 90 days), and a good friend of mine just received news of an illness she has, which I have a very small chance of now having, which also means that if I do there is a chance that one of my other friends now has it as well. Also my phone broke yesterday and I had to get a new one today.....
I need someone to talk to.....
- Location:Zhani's House
- Mood: depressed
- Music:Boys Don't Cry - The Cure
My insomnia kept me awake all night again and so here I sit at almost 7 in the morning typing, waiting to leave for a meeting at work at 8 AM. It doesn't help that I sat here alone all night, typing away random thoughts and failed poems, drawing random sketches, and generally browsing the vast space of the internet while listening to my current playlist almost 15 times now.
I wish I had someone to share nights like this with. Someone to stay up with chatting random thoughts away, watching old dvds, or simply just snuggling up while trying desperately to fall asleep only to end up watching the sunrise in each other's arms.
I watched the sunrise by myself this morning. It was a lonely sight, but beautiful nonetheless. I used to watch the sunrise much more often, when I was awake each day for it back while I was still in high school. I appreciated it more back then, but it was still just as lonely.
It was a weird sensation, but I actually felt myself getting older tonight. Sitting here, 8 hours after getting home from work last night, I actually feel noticeably older than I did yesterday. I am older I know, but I have never felt older before. I am a simple 4 months from no longer being a teenager anymore, from becoming an adult, and yet I still feel so young....yet old at the same time.
I should sleep when I get home from my meeting....
- Location:Home
- Mood: awake
- Music:Unintended - Muse
Anyways, my vacation away from work over last week was awesome and highly enjoyable, I much appreciatted the downtime because it appears I won't get it again for quite some time. Not that I am complaining much because I need the money if I plan to move into an apartment in about two months time. Wow, two months is all I have to try and get some money saved away for emergencies and hopefully a vehicle of some sort. Kind of scary to think about, ya know? I have about $100 in my bank right now, I still have about $300 in tax refunds coming in at some point, and that is it until I get paid again in a week and a half. My checks every two weeks right now are about $400 and my rent that I have to pay my grandparents each month is about $200....so I need to cut down my spending so that I can keep as much of extra $600 each month in my bank instead of in someone else's pockets.
I need a sidejob of some sorts.....anybody need any meaningless labor done or tedious paperwork sorted? Yardwork done? Babysitting? Need a clean and considerate hooker? I need the money, you name it I will perform.....damn, that sounds really sad....oh well.
- Location:Home
- Mood: pensive
- Music:Freezepop - Boom Boom
So, my D&D game started yesterday and the group of people that showed up are really cool. My friends from the area and my previous group showed to join, but so also did two guys that I talked about D&D with while working one day and invited t come and check it out. They are pretty cool dudes and we are glad to have them. Sadly though two of my coworkers that expressed interest and said that they were going to be there didn't show up, but that is there loss and not mine. Still, even though the group is made of a good set of players, I do fear for them. They are a barbarian, a warblade, a cleric, and a ninja.....what in the nine hells are they supposed to do with any sort of magical threat, eh? Let's hope they think of something.....
Anyways, now I will turn away from my nerdy ramblings and onto a more important subject: moving. I am currently in the planning stage (beginning of it really) of looking for a place to move to starting towards the end of this summer (when I should hopefully have a car by and some money saved away) and also for people to live with. A couple of friends of mine have already been talking with me about maybe living together and I also wanted to see who else is out there that may be considering the same thing. I want to move into either a semi-large apartment or a smallish house with a couple of people that I know and enjoy the company of. I used to live with people I didn't really know and in the end it didn't work out so well. Though it is still some time off I like to plan ahead and have time to evaluate my options on a decision for something as big as this. Hmm.....
PS. I got my paycheck today and it was about $80 more than I expected it to be, so I am in even more of a good mood than I have been. *dances in giddy circles*
- Location:Zhani's House
- Mood: giddy
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